Insomnia

Ok ok, the title is a bit off. Yes, I am still awake at 2am, but I'm also insanely tired. I'll likely be even more tired tomorrow since my boss will be at the office all morning. Not that pretending to work is that hard, but pretending I think he's funny at the same time can be exhausting. So why don't I just go to sleep, you ask! Because I feel like writing. I haven't written in a while and a lot has changed. Well not really, but I do feel like progress is being made in certain aspects of my life. I can't stop thinking about things and running it through my head over & over. I haven't "watched film" since HS football but right now thats exactly how I feel. Watching my next opponent play with a different team. All the while, I'm sitting back, taking notes on their habits, routines, and mentally preparing myself. Now I feel like I'm as ready as I'll ever be and I'm just waiting for their game to be over and mine to begin. Haha that was quite the analogy, but I hear I'm good at those. Ok, that's enough babbling for one night. Until next time!

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It's June 1st, The kid's last day of school is tomorrow & Summer is officially underway. Sunday is my race, & after everyone eats my bubbles, I'm gonna get shwasted... at 9am!!

As for today, so far it has been pretty shitty. I have just been in a blah mood & had to make a moral decision that wasn't easy, but I know it was right. I'm typically a very ethical person who does anything to avoid bad karma, but recently I've been pretty selfish. I finally cut the cord and as hard as it was, it feels good. I know I made the right move. I've gotta do everything in my power not to go swim 200 laps tonight, cause apparently thats what I do when I need to clear my head. Probably wouldnt be smart with the race coming up so soon.

I'll end this on one of my favorite quotes:

"It wasn't meant to be easy... that's why it feels so fucking good!"