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I feel like this has really become a means to complain. I used to write to entertain people, but lately I just use it to vent. Judging from my last post, I've been feeling this way for about a month. Coming from someone who is positive about 91.667% of the time, I'd call this a funk. I used to wake up and just know I was going to have a great day no matter what, but now I wake up feeling sad, or even angry sometimes. Why would I be angry the second I wake up? I used to make it a point to try and make everyone else's day by spreading positivity. For a while, I could see it working. I always said Positivity breeds Positivity, but lately I can't even pretend to feel positive. Maybe it's the fact that through all this spreading of positivity, I didn't really get anything back from it. I mean sure, seeing people smile and hearing their mood change is nice and all, but I guess in the long run it just drained me, or made me feel a little exhausted. Something has got to give. I need something life to change, for the better. My horoscope says I'm the biggest obstacle to my own happiness... ain't that the truth. Typically when I feel this way, I swim. Too bad I cancelled my gym membership & its too cold to swim outside. Whatever.