Last year in review

I'm such a terrible writer. Not in the sense that I don't write well, but that I don't write often. I haven't logged in to this site in over 2 years. On a more positive note, I'm in a much better mood these days. It seemed like my last posts were a bit depressing, and much of that stemmed from a girl. Since then I've met another girl, and dealt with all too familiar heartache that seems to come with it. I don't know if it's my age, or just ever dulling reaction to these situations, but I bounced back fairly well from that one. I'm not going to lie, it stung, but I took it as a lesson, and motivation to better myself and never looked back. Every now and then people mention her, but I don't seem to care anymore. I'm so focused on making me happy these days. Now don't get me wrong, I'm still a people pleaser and I love that shit, but I've learned that I don't always have to be one. I've been saving for a trip to Scotland this August and it's finally coming together. I can't wait to be over there, and experience that. Not that anything has presented itself for me to turn down, but I'm actually glad I will be experiencing this as a single man. It's not like I'm just looking to sleep with every woman with an accent, but I think it's just more the freedom of doing whatever I want without having to worry about how it is going to affect anyone else. The act of being able to be selfish without consequence excites me! I'm going with a couple close friends, and we're going to be there for a wedding. It sounds like it will be quite the extravagant nuptials, as well. When I get back, I hope to really buckle down on my saving and attempt to buy a house by the summer of 2016. However, if that doesn't pan out, Becca said I can live there forever haha. This weekend I'm going to Fort Worth to visit family and party a little. Seems mandatory when anywhere near JD & his friends. I look forward to the mini vacation. I've been staying quite busy lately. Not necessarily with work, but just plans in general. I guess it's my fault since I like to have things set in stone and not just up in the air. I'm planning Tim's bachelor party in Austin at the end of May. So far there are 9 of us going, so making plans is a bit pointless. The only thing I've got planned are the few bullet points Tim asked that we visit. It's gonna be a long weekend, but ridiculously fun at the same time. All my friends are getting married, starting families, and as much as I envy them, I'm not jealous. I love being single. Sure I miss companionship every now and then, but given the opportunity to rush a relationship I know isn't right, or staying single... I'll choose single any day. I enjoy my freedoms, and know that one day I won't be able to act as selfishly as I can today. Anyway, I feel like this jumped around a ton, but I kind of just wanted to say what I was thinking as it came to mind.