Swimming In Circles

I went swimming tonight for the first time in months. Last time I swam was with Timmy and I did 160 laps. Tonight I kept it to a mild 64. It was a last minute decision. I needed something to clear my head and swimming usually does just that. Well now I am laying in bed and all I can think about is her. It's been 3 days and I'm still completely in the dark about the entire situation. I took a lot of heat for her Monday and now I'm just waiting to figure out what happens next. I'm getting mixed reports from 3rd party people. I don't want to hear anything from anyone but her. I wanna be there to support her, but I can't because I told myself I wouldn't. I'm surprised I didn't sink tonight. I've felt so heavy hearted the last few days. I haven't had butterflies like this in what seems like forever, but it can probably be calculated to the last time I saw her.

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