It's funny how you can go 6 months without seeing someone and just when you finally think you're over it all, they reappear in front of you and fuck up your entire mindset without saying a word. I've been fighting the urge to text her for going on 2 weeks now. No, I don't have her number... I deleted that months ago, but it's seared into my memory. Usually memorizing numbers is a gift, but in this case it's my curse. After the lying & manipulation and head games she put me through... I still for some unbeknownst reason don't hate her. Maybe it's the fact that I've never met anyone else like her. I know I don't want to be with her. I know my friends don't want me to be with her. I am in desperate need of a distraction. Don't get me wrong, I live a busy, fun & happy life... But why am I still hung up on this chick? Maybe she's a witch. Maybe I'm just lonely. Maybe it's the sheer fact that it's been 6 months since I've been with a girl. Maybe it's one-itis because for over a year I didn't hate this girl and now all of the sudden I am supposed to. Does she feel the same way? Is her head a mess right now?! Do I care?! I've been single for 4 years now... Why do I feel like I just got out of a relationship. "Don't get emotionally attached." they said... But I don't function that way. My brain is wired to care, to nurture & to fall head over heels for the one I am intimate with. Don't get me wrong, right now I wouldn't turn down a little strange. I am still a man, and a very single one at that. I just wish I could get out of this funk I've been thrown into.
Maybe Boston will be the cure... See you in 4 days you Irish fucks!!
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I think some strange is the correct remedy for this situation ... go find some.
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